jealous??

A lot of things had been going on since i came to kampar to further my study...i knew a lot of new frens but some of them cannot be trusted...but i willing to give up my life for some of them...i got two new kai jie...one of them is in my class...another 1 is studying degree...and not least...i oso have a kai mui dy...she is good but quite childish...wat to do...she onli 18 years old...hehehe...no hard feeling if u r reading tis blog...that is ta gud part...but the worst part is much more than that...i grateful bcoz of my hsemate...which is my camp fren...for the 1st few month when i come over to kampar...i couldnt even pay for my hse rental...but they willing to borrow me such a big amount...i cannot ask from my parent bcoz they had already said i have to pay everything on my own...i was very happy until my 1st sem assignment ended...i found out some of my team member BETRAYED me...i done the whole assignment paper on my own...but at the end, i onli managed to get 5 out of 10 marks...but they have 10 out of 10...i complained to my lecturer but she say she couldnt do anything coz i didnt tell her b4...from then on, i decided not to be with them wat ever things i do...

i always jealous at other..i always think, why should i go to work when other dont...y do they have full support from they family but i got nothing...(my parent even complain when i go bek to my hse in kl)...

but i noe there is no point to jealous at other anymore...but the things i get hurt more is they complicated relationship i involved in,...to tell the truth...i dont know y do i will fall in love so easily...but everytime when i do so...i will surely ended up wit a tragedic...but among all tragedic...this is the worst part...

i have done the most stupid things ever in my whole life...i confessed to a girl that i noe she wont even consider to accept me...during my birthday...i was confused when i type the sms...i noe it sound silly but i really dunno y i wan to tell her...after i send the sms..i found out that she keep avoid me...i noticed it for a few days...during those days...my mood was typically down like it was deeper than the crust of the earth...i onli get better when my fren, terry scolded me for my gud...but juz after the few days...she approach me and tell me all those things that break my heart bfore it could fully recover...come on...i dun care who u wan to talk to...where u wan to be...but to say i specially focused on u...ok i admit, i did it last time...but after terry scolded me, i did nothing like tat ever again...the worst case is v could nvr be a fren anymore...i dunno wat to talk to her anymore...i could onli smile when she told me all those things...haiz...she say is her problems not mine...but seriously, is it her or it was my problem??come on...who ever noe me will surely noe i juz a fat ass with nothing but juz a stupid brain that think bout hacking system all the time(that 1 oso talk onli)...who am i to fall in love...who am i to ask people to accept me...